Finding a Reason to Stay

I’m a nomad at heart. I’ve moved around a lot, and I can always find a reason to leave. What I didn’t expect this past year was to find a reason to stay. About a year and a half ago, I moved to Boston for a job. But six months after I got here, I lost…

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Try Hard

I started January 1st with a very specific goal. My plan was to go into the gym and crush the project I’d been working on. It would be a new bouldering grade for me, and finishing it seemed like the perfect way to start the new year. But when I got to the gym and looked at…

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Love Doesn’t Give Up

The air felt heavy on Wednesday as I walked to the climbing gym. My feet moved forward, while my mind spun. I attempted to climb, because that is what usually helps me when things are hard, but it didn’t work this time. I lay on the mats, filled with sadness and fear. Thinking that maybe I…

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Becoming a Badass

This year, my only New Year’s resolution was to be a badass. I didn’t really know what that would mean when I made the resolution, but I knew it was important. I had a vague notion of wanting to be more confident and try things outside of my comfort zone. Turns out I had no idea…

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Focusing my Superpower

I see like a camera sees. Which means I don’t see how other people see. For a long time, I thought this was a disadvantage. I was born cross-eyed. Though I had three surgeries when I was young to correct it cosmetically, my brain never figured out how to fuse the separate images from my…

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I Can’t

I can’t. Yes, you can. This was the exchange that went back and forth between my belayer and me. And that often goes on in my head. Most of the time, I feel fearless. I’m not scared of heights, spiders, clowns or any of the subjects of the most common phobias. Sometimes, I even think…

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