You Gotta Commit

Inspired by this post by Ash Ambirge – and by climbing, which has taught me that you truly have to commit if you want to make the move. So here is what I am committed to. I am committed to pursuing this life. I am committed to being terrified and trying anyway. I am committed to…

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Push Yourself a Little Bit Further

“Don’t be afraid of your fears. They’re not there to scare you. They’re there to let you know that something is worth it.” – C. JoyBell C. I reached my hand up and felt the rock above me, searching for a handhold. Nothing felt secure I looked down, wanting to yell “take!” but realized I…

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Something Old or Something New?

My friends invited me over for board games, and at one point, we were trying to decide what game to play next. “Do you want to play the one we played last time or learn a new one?” they asked. The one I knew would be easy to start, and I could actually compete to the…

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Finding a Reason to Stay

I’m a nomad at heart. I’ve moved around a lot, and I can always find a reason to leave. What I didn’t expect this past year was to find a reason to stay. About a year and a half ago, I moved to Boston for a job. But six months after I got here, I lost…

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Try Hard

I started January 1st with a very specific goal. My plan was to go into the gym and crush the project I’d been working on. It would be a new bouldering grade for me, and finishing it seemed like the perfect way to start the new year. But when I got to the gym and looked at…

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Love Doesn’t Give Up

The air felt heavy on Wednesday as I walked to the climbing gym. My feet moved forward, while my mind spun. I attempted to climb, because that is what usually helps me when things are hard, but it didn’t work this time. I lay on the mats, filled with sadness and fear. Thinking that maybe I…

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Becoming a Badass

This year, my only New Year’s resolution was to be a badass. I didn’t really know what that would mean when I made the resolution, but I knew it was important. I had a vague notion of wanting to be more confident and try things outside of my comfort zone. Turns out I had no idea…

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Focusing my Superpower

I see like a camera sees. Which means I don’t see how other people see. For a long time, I thought this was a disadvantage. I was born cross-eyed. Though I had three surgeries when I was young to correct it cosmetically, my brain never figured out how to fuse the separate images from my…

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I Can’t

I can’t. Yes, you can. This was the exchange that went back and forth between my belayer and me. And that often goes on in my head. Most of the time, I feel fearless. I’m not scared of heights, spiders, clowns or any of the subjects of the most common phobias. Sometimes, I even think…

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